BANG YOUR HEAD!

i went to tco stadium for vikings training camp today. it was supposed to be the offensive line's practice mainly today. i ended up banging my head THREE TIMES when i fell backwards off the bleachers. the guards acted mildly concerned the first time and i don't even remember them coming to my aid the last two times. they were just old guys probably working part-time to fill in for their social security. whatever. my head doesn't really hurt now, it's more pain in my shoulders. so i'll probably end up taking some tylenol later so my head doesn't start hurting. i don't know if i'm just being delusional or paranoid but i noticed #4 from the vikings looking at me occasionally- although i'm not sure if it's because i was the darkest one in the bleachers (i noticed i got darker because i was in the sun all day and i didn't even think of putting sunscreen on- my nose is really only the redest thing on my body but i'm also not sure if it's because my glasses? or it could be the sun but none of my other face is really red) or if he was possibly looking at something else but i was pretty much the only one in the area of bleachers i sat at for ada. then a black guy and his son came and sat in the bleachers, so i lost my "darkest person" title. i'm pretty used to being the darkest one in a group of people growing up in glencoe though. pretty damn white honkey town. it takes a pretty strong person to just ignore a lot of the shit i heard myself called. dumbasses wonder WHY i wanna move as FAR away from that shit as possible. the WHITE side of my family could never understand how i feel- they feel more comfortable being ignorant. I'M NOT STUPID OR BLIND.. I KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON UNLIKE CERTAIN NAIVE UNCARING FUCKS IN CHARGE OF "SUPPORTING" ME.. ALTHOUGH I'M NOT SURE IF THEY'RE SUPPORTING ME TO BE AS SUCCESSFUL AS POSSIBLE BASED ON MY ACTUAL POTENTIAL OR JUST WHATEVER'S MORE CONVENIENT FOR THEM. BUT I'M STUPID AND I DON'T REALIZE ANY OF THIS BECAUSE I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY.. RIGHT AMANDA?!